That's the truth! Anger is fine to a point. As you rightly said, sadness comes out as anger. I experienced this when my mom passed away unexpectedly. I was mad because I wasn't ready. Gradually, I realized I would never be ready to lose her. So I came to terms with it. Such a beautifully written story, Deb. And so much to learn for everyone who's ever lost someone. Hugs! Sending you love. I admire you.